by Beauty.Full.

It’s been a really rough week.

I’ve hesitated to write about it for several reasons:

a) I’d probably start crying, and I’ve cried enough at the office this week.

b) It would make this feel more realistic.

and c) I hate sounding like a Negative Nancy online. That’s what most blogs seem to be used for — to whine and complain. And I never wanted this site to become a  festival of complaining.

But, it’s been tough.

Thanks to my incredibly understanding and wise boyfriend, compassionate sister, and encouraging parents, I am halfway done with my third week — taking this one day at a time.

While Skyping with my parents, my father said to me: “Lauren, sometimes failure simply means a revelation, not that you didn’t succeed.”

And I’ve had a lot of revelations this week.

I’d always thought that I was a bit of a restless soul, feeling wanderlust, desiring to see the world. I felt a void in my life that needed to be filled and I thought that travel and new experiences would fill that.

Instead, I arrived more empty that I thought possible.

But God’s been filling me up, encouraging me in the most amazing ways. Today as I was driving to work, I saw a sign in English with a bible verse on it. This was amazing for two reasons:

a) I’ve never seen it before, and I’ve been riding the same route for two weeks


b) It was in English. Hardly anything is in English.

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” Colossians 3:23

Suddenly, working in a job that I despise became a whole lot easier. It was like God sent a giant breath of fresh air in my direction.

He’s been doing that a lot lately.

So now, thanks to Pintrest, this cute print hangs above my computer. Pretty awesome reminder.